Different thoughts
Apr. 24th, 2007 09:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tamara_russoHappiness: My birthday is in less then two weeks, and I'm getting a nice gift for it - the second OotP trailer is coming out at that date, and the first was absolutely amazing. July 13th, oh my!
Anger: I'm angry how my plans for last night and today got foiled. I understand everyone (well, almost everyone) for not being able to come, but it still make me furious, and that's very meaningful. I'm not bummed, I'm not upset, I'm full out angry at the amount of diseases, problems, lectures and such-likes that prevented me from having just one independence eve as not just watch-the-fireworks-on-the-roof-and-then-fall-asleep-on-the-sofa. Will probably be angry for a few more days about it. *sigh*
Sadness: As I was watching the fireworks last night tears came into my eyes, as they do almost every year. The pressure of the entire last days, with the cancellation of everything, the realization that I was truly sick and not just having food poisoning or something like that, and again, the fact that I was standing alone next to the bars of my roof watching fireworks. I guess it's just a reminder from older times, when this night symbolized just how much I did nothing with friends, or how much I hated to go out on that evening, so this feeling will blow over quickly.
Worrying: Thursday night I learned how much I am truly worried about Hagar. I know you're reading this, and it's always easier in writing for me to talk - I don't think you're fine, and I really think you need to talk to someone. I don't buy what she said about being able to deal. I know she's strong, I've always known that. It wouldn't make you weaker by seeking some kind of help for yourself, and please, before the fall will come.
Thinking about food: I do like Edmame, and I'd rather eat "Kyoto"'s sushi than "Running sushi"'s. The restaurant we went to on Saturday was also not so hot, and we won't be going back there. I'm again in a position of "being the only vegetarian in a group of carnivores" since I'll by going to the picnic with my parents (even for a short while, my mom doesn't want me to stay at home alone), So I'l have to eat beforehand. *growl*
Achievement: I've read three new books these last few weeks, that last one ("Jane Eyre") was read in under 24 hours of me being in bed. I've also re-read "The time traveler's wife", one of the most beautiful love stories I've ever stumbled upon, and one of my all-time-favorites. I hope I'll be able to finish another book until the end of the week. I've also managed to get ahead with a few of my painting, one is nearly finished, just need another coat of varnish and it's good to go, the other is only background, but just that needed about three coats of color and painting the edges, and that takes time for it to look fine, and the other need a ton more work even though the background is done and some, but it's one of those paintings that take a long time. The forth one is still undergoing, slow but safe. Fifth one in a complete stop, because I need inspiration on what to do next.
Hunger: Woah, it's nearly ten. I'm going to eat.
Anger: I'm angry how my plans for last night and today got foiled. I understand everyone (well, almost everyone) for not being able to come, but it still make me furious, and that's very meaningful. I'm not bummed, I'm not upset, I'm full out angry at the amount of diseases, problems, lectures and such-likes that prevented me from having just one independence eve as not just watch-the-fireworks-on-the-roof-and-then-fall-asleep-on-the-sofa. Will probably be angry for a few more days about it. *sigh*
Sadness: As I was watching the fireworks last night tears came into my eyes, as they do almost every year. The pressure of the entire last days, with the cancellation of everything, the realization that I was truly sick and not just having food poisoning or something like that, and again, the fact that I was standing alone next to the bars of my roof watching fireworks. I guess it's just a reminder from older times, when this night symbolized just how much I did nothing with friends, or how much I hated to go out on that evening, so this feeling will blow over quickly.
Worrying: Thursday night I learned how much I am truly worried about Hagar. I know you're reading this, and it's always easier in writing for me to talk - I don't think you're fine, and I really think you need to talk to someone. I don't buy what she said about being able to deal. I know she's strong, I've always known that. It wouldn't make you weaker by seeking some kind of help for yourself, and please, before the fall will come.
Thinking about food: I do like Edmame, and I'd rather eat "Kyoto"'s sushi than "Running sushi"'s. The restaurant we went to on Saturday was also not so hot, and we won't be going back there. I'm again in a position of "being the only vegetarian in a group of carnivores" since I'll by going to the picnic with my parents (even for a short while, my mom doesn't want me to stay at home alone), So I'l have to eat beforehand. *growl*
Achievement: I've read three new books these last few weeks, that last one ("Jane Eyre") was read in under 24 hours of me being in bed. I've also re-read "The time traveler's wife", one of the most beautiful love stories I've ever stumbled upon, and one of my all-time-favorites. I hope I'll be able to finish another book until the end of the week. I've also managed to get ahead with a few of my painting, one is nearly finished, just need another coat of varnish and it's good to go, the other is only background, but just that needed about three coats of color and painting the edges, and that takes time for it to look fine, and the other need a ton more work even though the background is done and some, but it's one of those paintings that take a long time. The forth one is still undergoing, slow but safe. Fifth one in a complete stop, because I need inspiration on what to do next.
Hunger: Woah, it's nearly ten. I'm going to eat.
