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tamara_russoFrom my diary, two years ago" My lonely state is domminant through every aspect of my life".
I don't think so anymore. I'm not lonely. It's amazing, I never in my life lacked that feeling, no matter I had friends, family.
I was an outcast in school, I had almost no friends there (Efrat and Helena were, and still are, my only friends from high-school) and even though I had friends through other places, non of them "stuck", including later, in the army.
Then came the university, and Lilach, and Ayala, and finally Hagar. With Hagar came a lot of people, all of them the exact type I like and associate with.
I listened to my voice-mail messege from about two years ago and to the one I made last week. It sounds completely different - I'm happy. I was never happy, not like this, not with it actually being a continuing situation. I love my job, I love my friends, old and new, I love my life, I'm losing weight, The only thing I don't have is a boy/girlfriend, and it bothers me less then it used to.
Apart from this השתפכות, news:
* Racheli (who works with me) gave birth yesterday and I'm going to see her today, probably.
*Tori amos new collection - I'm so going to buy it!
*Party this and next weekend, in Reut and Haifa. I have five presents to give (or is it six?...)
*Bought a new wallet, by Benetton, and it may be a bit too small, but it's gorgeous and it wasn't expansive (it's also non-leather).
*As it turned out, Navot was actually listening (no offense, sweetheart, I usually even give myself bad advice so I didn't think you'd accept what I said) to me when I gave him my own two cents about some things, and it was helpful. I'm glad.
*My head hurts. Blaaaaaaaaa... I'm also hungry.
*Finally got an idea to the new painting, and with a little patiance I'll have some butterflies in my room... :)
I don't think so anymore. I'm not lonely. It's amazing, I never in my life lacked that feeling, no matter I had friends, family.
I was an outcast in school, I had almost no friends there (Efrat and Helena were, and still are, my only friends from high-school) and even though I had friends through other places, non of them "stuck", including later, in the army.
Then came the university, and Lilach, and Ayala, and finally Hagar. With Hagar came a lot of people, all of them the exact type I like and associate with.
I listened to my voice-mail messege from about two years ago and to the one I made last week. It sounds completely different - I'm happy. I was never happy, not like this, not with it actually being a continuing situation. I love my job, I love my friends, old and new, I love my life, I'm losing weight, The only thing I don't have is a boy/girlfriend, and it bothers me less then it used to.
Apart from this השתפכות, news:
* Racheli (who works with me) gave birth yesterday and I'm going to see her today, probably.
*Tori amos new collection - I'm so going to buy it!
*Party this and next weekend, in Reut and Haifa. I have five presents to give (or is it six?...)
*Bought a new wallet, by Benetton, and it may be a bit too small, but it's gorgeous and it wasn't expansive (it's also non-leather).
*As it turned out, Navot was actually listening (no offense, sweetheart, I usually even give myself bad advice so I didn't think you'd accept what I said) to me when I gave him my own two cents about some things, and it was helpful. I'm glad.
*My head hurts. Blaaaaaaaaa... I'm also hungry.
*Finally got an idea to the new painting, and with a little patiance I'll have some butterflies in my room... :)
